Happy motha's day !

im kinda jelous with friends posting post . uploading images about hugging . kissing their mummy on Faccebook 
:(( if my mum got facebook.. i'll post hundred wishes on her wall . if my hometown got network connection i'll call her and say happy motha's day . if she is besides me right now. i swear ! i'll hug and kiss her even let my tears flow from my eyes with no shame.. but what can i do.. i just can stand by idly and wait for the day to pass by . some friend ask me . hey flove have u wished u mum yet? i say mum's not at home . he reply .. well call her . tell her happy motha's day ! and i just rep him . : hmm bh . i think there's no need for them to know my situation. im not even searching for attention . and i even nearly call bestie's mum as mum . when im typing to wish her a happy mommy's day . whatthefuuu. hahahahah hmmm :(((( .i never wished my mum even once in my life .. i felt terrible . very horrible .
hmm. imma out ! SAD ! t.t
and.. to all mommies in the world . HAPPY MOTHA'S DAY ! 

my fcukin template ! and SHIT EX !

hahhaa. i want to laugh yet im laughing ! haha.  =p

i've done doing my template . kinda satisfied withh it . errhh. hehe

i really LOIKE it ! haha .

puuhhleasseeee god ! get rid of this insane man from me . he text me like . OMYGuDNESS ! he really searching for HELL . isn't it . he ask me to be his girlfie when I have my own ...FUUUUUUU . i'll burried him ALIVE ! YESSSSSSSSSSS ! ALIVE MAN ! if he do this continuosly I'd go NUT ! TOTALLY CRAZY !!! he said he wants to suicide .. I said . do whatever u wish ! errrgggghhh. but he kept texting me ! why dn't he just suicide and go to the FUCKING HELL !! I can't understand with this kind no shame guy ! begging me like SHIT ! I think he wanna mess up with me . erhh. NO ! he is messing up with my brain !!! urgghh ! whatever . TONIGHT .. IM GOING TO SLEEP AND DREAM ABOUT KILLING HIM ! hahahaha . 

GTG ! BYEE!

i have so many things to say !

the first day making of CUPCAKEs.

~ haha . i've done a great job on my cuppies . =p it taste delicious . but i swear . it's only for people who have the sweet tooth . haha . i make it super2 sweet .
 pictures :

oew. i know . i know . it doesn't seem so yummy . haha

at least i rate it 1 star out of 5 star . hahaha .

i've told u . this is my first time doing this ok ! haha it's a VANNILA CUPCAKES . yeahh . doesn't seem like it's name. haha

the next day making of second CUPPIEs. 

i try making CHESSE CUPCAKES . yeah . and again it's beyond word . it's unexplainable babie . hahaa . omg. i just eat it a little. i dn't know what's wrong with it. but i'll say . I HATE MY CUPCAKES. hahaha .

well . here's the pictures : 

 i choose green as my icing colours. it's my favourite . :)))

it's still in the oven .it smells good but taste ...... haHa.

HMM . I'VE BEEN SEARCHING FOR THE BEST LAYOUT .
BUT . EF YEW SEE KAY . 
I ddn't find any . actually i've found plenty but . THIS . 
finally , i'll just use the simplest one as my layout . watafuks. i'll change it again . i swear i will. haha

huhh . gonna update u soon bloggy . gtg . byyeee ! :) 

ef yew see KAY !

we share feeling . when she's hurt . i am hurt .

hmmm. u should nver worry about him anymore. I HATE WHEN SOME PEOPLE TREAT U LIKE THAT . it's not that im being emosional but . looking u to be hurt is one of my weakness. i hope u understand . he said he wants it. but he nver show that he wants it so bad. so what's the point of keeping him at the back . I HOPE HE READ THIS !

i wrote this to my bestie. yeah . i did . he didn't have that seriousness to have that relationship . my bestie deserve the best for her . so do him . BUt . what's the point of keeping that relationship . if the boy ddn't even text or talk to her . i'll be in the grave if im in her shoe . watafukkks . =o . my saliva is no fuckin free . i don't give a crap of some jerks! :) 

bestie : if u read this . i wrote this bcus i fuckinn love u ! <3

there might be a billion of people in this world . but sometimes i can count my good friends with only one hand and still have fingers left .

own:flove

biatch freak !

i don't get it . why some kind of freak suddenly hating me . i ddn't went to sch last week for a reason and everyone know it ! my friends tell me ..that ... THEY pass by my class and say . 'where's the girl huhh? she absent again? erk. absolutely and there's no way they will talk in english . haha .it's an old story of mine. i LOVE to braid my hair .last year . i braid my hair and she yell me from my back . she said . whats with the hair on braid? u better untie it . what ?!!! she's 17 and i am 15 .ain't she realize that she's old enough to do that? she have a green eyes or something? hmm. next time . you should talk or yell in front of me. not my back . my back's not a voicemail . or nevermind u won't get it .

teary moments . sad . fake laughter and smile .

7 FEBRUARY 2011 .. rush and hush to get ready to school . and some unexpected moments came .. daddy's struggling to fight for his life . we wait for ambulance to get dad to the hospital .finally it comes. first time to be in an ambulance is pretty freakin me out . i can't think anything . i feel like blaking out .but i must strong .

finally they sent dad to HQE . sister flight is 4.20s but it'd been delay to 6.05 o'clock . it's kinda frustrating . all of us waiting for her appearance . and dad's suffering and struggling to keep alive ..around 8o'clock .. it is daddy rest time . end of his pain . he finally went to heaven accompany by GOD and angles . after a few minutes later. sister arrived with sobs . i give her a warm hug . ...there's many aunts and uncles with us . they are so supportive and care for us ., i really appreciate it .... SAA 6851 G . it's the car that carried my dad .. yeah . i still remember it . eventhough we cry hard for his leave . but we have to let him go . he need to rest . im glad that he rest in peace . it's not that i like that he's gone but .i am luckier compared with other that lost their dad at young . that's my mum said to me ,. and i really want to thanks my bestie for being there for me . although i never do the same but . she still comfort me with her very best . THANKS BESTIE ! 

TROUBLE IS NOT MY FRIEND LENKA !

it's been like forever i ddn't update u bloggy ! wasehh . i have plenty of problems here . and it keep hunting me . why in the world should trouble really exist . haizz . fuuuuu ~

i am really happy to be with him . i don't know why . but i really feel comfortable with him . i know it sound may so gross . haha . especially bestie . i know ure reading this. haha . mmh . i don't want to talk more bout that .

daddy .. at the time i watch him goes silent . i'll call him . i am just afraid . that's really freakin me out . i don't know . instead of crying.  what can i do. ? WHAT ? i am no DOCTOR . even a gOD . i don't even know how to cure myself . and yet want to cure fa' . PRAY is the only thing i can do now . im not trying to be attention seeker . i confess my feeling here . :)

I LOVE MY BESTIE . I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .I LOVE MY BESTIE .

todays story . todays read .

haha . =p weww . i am soo anxious . i haven't done with tcher Irish's task . nervvv gilaaa . i try to do the best for her . i hope she'll thaught me on my weakness and mistakes .  btw . i HATE peops with big mouth ! it's not that peops physical looks . it's the way they RANT ! haiyaaaa . manyak mikin pnass oeew they . peeii . she's trying to speak expertly but . XDDD she can't ! she's trying to put us down ! but seems like she's the one drowning . hahhahhaaa . eeeuwww. i likeee . haha . that awkward moment when im speaking with my bestie and some bitch is listening .and musing us . FUUUUU . i just hate some weirdo staring at me . especially a guy . well. except my ... hahahhaa , . =p noo laaa . oi peeps ! do not stare at me ! i eat people ! XDDD

dumb . whip up my anger!

ou my holly GOD ! yesterday . i went to the Hospital again . of cus to visit my dad . and there's just some stupid nurse . talking . laughing . it's okay but , it's in LOUD version ! pakkiu ! after 5 mins trying to hold my anger . there u are. that's what u get from me when u whip up my anger !daddys sleeping and the nurse: hahahhaha LOL ! me : could u pls slow down ure voice !! and i want to talk more . but mom's like = =' dnt do that ! but i kinda satisfied that i've commented them some . but i think it's just ddn't enough ! we have 4 patients there and they're making fuckin loud noise . i just want to ask them . is this ure house mam ! u want to slow down ure volume or get the fuckin out of  here ! but the fact . i just talk in manner . it's not that i don't respect adults . but . they way too far . that's a HOSPITAL ! not their HOME ! well . hate me nurse ! i dnt care . ure not anyone . of cus not a doctor ! =p

hummh . after the incident of my ACHIEVING GOAL ! he ask my bestie bout me and Akif . but he's just say 'Flo's go back to her ex right ! well well well . i know . iknow . he's asking about me . but pretending it to be that way . cehhh . hurm. let him be that way .he wants it to be that way . his choice right ! not minee ! so noo need for me to even care about him . 

after that day .. , suddenly sysys visit my sch . actually . it's not called visit . it's a bad news for me . sysys said : fa having a hard time . n i was like : i want to go home . sysys rep : noo . u can't! u have to study . study well . don't think about that too much .

well . how can i cannot think of it . it's my fa ! my FA ! sysys walk away and i look the other way around . i really  feel like crying . i try to hold it inside . but i just can't . as i told u before. i'll cry on lowest strength of mine . yess. i cry ! bestie look at me and console me with positivity . im so afraid . i am really . i really appreciate my classmate for their worry towards me . and i like it when HE worry about me and ... eventhough he's just speechless . haha . XD .. that night . i went to the hospital . yeah . and once again . i flows my tears . tears that i keep inside . ii just can't watch my dad suffer anymore . watching him that way is a pain for me. i really hope that he can manage to be with us . really . and im so sure ! HE WILL ! he will sit and walk whereever he want . and went to my sys convo . dad ! fighting ! we're all praying for daddy's health . :)) I LOVE U DAD ! I REALLY DID ! :))

Auburn - Bestfriend (w/ lyrics&downloadlink)

Auburn - Superman ( im lovin this song . haha . this song is for the fuckin think boy that think they are hot !

science presentation

puhleeasse god . i can do it better. i just stuck somewhere i ddn't even practice . as u know . to speak very well on something . practice is vital . haiz. it's all bcus that man ! eee. paning jak kpala sa ! making a lot of noise . n that's a nut things . eee. got drunk and gone crazy . u better be not get drunk again. just feel like wanna slap on ure face ! but nvm . past are past . there's nothing that i can do to make it better. but . i'll do better for the next presentation , FOR SURE !


peaceOUT !  <3 Flove

GOAL !

hahahaha . i achieve my goal today ! wakakaka . 

from sch to toran to telipok again . and im waiting for a bus . oee. yess. i saw AKIF(ironman) wakakkaa . noo lar. my old friend . haha . the he's waiting for a friend . and i acompany him. and i have a BIG wish on my head. wakaka . i hope . HE' saw us together at bustop. haha . and suddenly . he pass by across the street . =p i loikkeeee it ! im hoping that he saw us . :DDDD i wanna do it agaaiinnn ! XD

im only HUMAN and i was born to make mistakes .

Three words Eight letters Three syllables Five vowels Three consonants Two nouns One emotion many meanings A big lie A rare truth I love you

I am not afraid of tomorrow, for I have seen yesterday and I love today. !

stared by a monsterrrr ! :D

muhGOD someone gazed me with a keen eyes . and that's tottaly freakin me out ! when i reply his musing eyes , and he's still staring at me . eee. cume on . tedda keja len kh? i know u hate me that lot . i know .but gazing me that way . doesn't helping at all. u hate me ! talk to me . i ddn't mean to hurt u nor ure bestie but. im more hurt than u think ure hurt !jeezz . i don't know what should i do . living in that situation make me uncomfortable. that's not even cool ! :/ 

well. i don't know ! i don't know ! what the hecks with him  . he don't even understand me. and don't even try to understand me . i am the way that i want . the way that i want to live to. seems he will never got to understand me. and i don't even care bout him anymore ! 3 words: LIFE GOES ON ! im turnin into new feeling . new person . and i hope he will be the reason unbreak my heart ! =p . isn't that too much ? hahahaha .

peaceOUT bebeh ! <3 Flove

girl : u are in a realationship with somekind of jerk .yet u are blaming the other girl that've been played around . accusing the girl's a third person .she's nothing related to his games .i've heard their conversation :she really am asking the boy bout the truth. yet the jerk said: we got no relationship at all. he sa...id more.she's just spreading rumors .well.don't be too blind to know the truth .

well. this is a true story friend of mine .  actually . the three person in this story are my friend .

ow yeah. i have some experience at sch that's got a lil funny ! haha .

whe're at SPBT room . then suddenly one creatures come and make story with netalie. and i was like ' what's she doing here . only messing this place moree ! =p . then olvy said to me : flo , what's MORROn ? i said : MORRON is a word represent an idiot . the way to express idiots and stupidas. and the stranger 'looking at us . and she smile ! puhlease GOD . i know she know nothing ! hahaha .

A LOT OF THING . YET SHORT TIME .

ting tong ! :))

haha . it's been soo tiring . i don't even know what i do till making me that tired. XD . today we have our rally likewise every tuesday ! luckily . madam got nothing to say . sang sch song and get the hell out from there . but !BAD luck come ! my sch bus just left me 5 min ago. and i was like = =' . i hate rally ! it makes me have to wait for another 2 hours to get home ! huew. while i am pensiving , suddenly some kind of face appeared in front of me . we're eye-ing contact . and he looks the other place and pretending that nothing's happen . cehhh. i don't even want to watch his face .

lesson = don't ever hurt me if u ddn't want me to hate u ! forever .

Monday . New Teachers .

wewwit! XD. we have a new male teacher who on guilty for teaching in ART subject . XD . he's kinda sport ! BUT . that's sport got a lil hot maker ! XD .what's wrong with him? is he having some kind of disease ! like seriously ! he don't even know my name . it's just a FLO' and he said. oh noo. that's too hard to remember . = =' that's sooo untrueee !

he only remember me as a Philipines actress drama tv called PANGAKO SAYO . haha. when i think of it . we have nothing similar at all. she more gorgeous . haha . he's gotta be kidding me . ! :)) but i loike it . i mean the drama okay ! not bcus of the compliment ! =p .

boobooo . i just hate a male complaining about my hair . i mean . it's COMPLAINING not COMPLIMENT ! cehhh . he got nothing better than moine . so STFU pluss GTFO bastard ! = ='

it's kinda stressing me out. haha . =p .
 i have nothing more to say . peaceOUt! <3 flove

I JUST SHARE THE SONG THAT I LIKE OKAY ! xd .

Faizal Tahir - Hanyut

a male student just comment bout my hair today .
he said : flo . thu rmbut tlmpau bgaya sda thu !
and i was like ==' . how can a male student say such thing like that to a girl ? . hell. it's my hair . my hair's up on my head . not yours .
imma girl . every girl have their own style . so do u . i'll just say that . RESPE...CT is a must boy . u respect me . i'll respect u more . don't even dare to judge me !

A.P.I - Pelita dengan Lirik ( i just like the song ) they were so unique eventhough . they're a malaysian singer . well. hell. i love malaysian !

i just created some kind of things ! haha

no fight? that doesn't called a relationship .
that's what we call life. even friend'd fought before . so that's not a great peculiar things ! :))

My status !

S to the I to the N to the G to the L and to the E . . SINGLE ! yeah . that's my status for now on. XDD . i feel proud of it ! like seriously . :D . but at the same time . i feel kinda hurt . but NVM . i DON't CARE !
xD . dad's getting better . that's a relief . being a human . we can't cure dad's sickness. but . we'll be there by his side. always . n we pray ! praying that GOD give us the strength . the strength to face this greatest conjectures . urgghh. i HATE crying in front of my family . that's make me looks so weak . but. i'll cry when im having the last time of my lowest strength . weww.  end of my story. bro wanna use this laptop . gtg . bye !


love : flove