hummh . after the incident of my ACHIEVING GOAL ! he ask my bestie bout me and Akif . but he's just say 'Flo's go back to her ex right ! well well well . i know . iknow . he's asking about me . but pretending it to be that way . cehhh . hurm. let him be that way .he wants it to be that way . his choice right ! not minee ! so noo need for me to even care about him . 

after that day .. , suddenly sysys visit my sch . actually . it's not called visit . it's a bad news for me . sysys said : fa having a hard time . n i was like : i want to go home . sysys rep : noo . u can't! u have to study . study well . don't think about that too much .

well . how can i cannot think of it . it's my fa ! my FA ! sysys walk away and i look the other way around . i really  feel like crying . i try to hold it inside . but i just can't . as i told u before. i'll cry on lowest strength of mine . yess. i cry ! bestie look at me and console me with positivity . im so afraid . i am really . i really appreciate my classmate for their worry towards me . and i like it when HE worry about me and ... eventhough he's just speechless . haha . XD .. that night . i went to the hospital . yeah . and once again . i flows my tears . tears that i keep inside . ii just can't watch my dad suffer anymore . watching him that way is a pain for me. i really hope that he can manage to be with us . really . and im so sure ! HE WILL ! he will sit and walk whereever he want . and went to my sys convo . dad ! fighting ! we're all praying for daddy's health . :)) I LOVE U DAD ! I REALLY DID ! :))